Where have I been?

I could say that I've been busy with work and school which is true, but not the real reason for the long silence.  Truth is I just don't have the drive to come here and post, plus I'm lazy.  I've been very undecided on what I wanted to do with this blog but I'm starting to get an idea of what I want. 

One-
There will be a certain element of autobiography.  I will make posts regarding things going on in my life, things I want, and things I think about.  May also make the occasional lazy review but those will likely be far and few between.

Two-
A certain element of certainty exists in my life right now.  It has long been my dream to be a writer, but I've also had it beaten into my head that writing is an uncertain profession and may not pay the bills.  Thus I made the compromise to attain an education related to business so I could have a day job, and then when I was set up I could then indulge in writing in my spare time.  However with the medical things going on in my life right now, I'm not certain if I'll be able to work in the near future, or at least not be able to work for a time.

What medical stuff?
I've suffered from back pain since my junior year of high school.  The pain wasn't bad at the time but an x-ray did reveal some possible osteoarthritis in my back.  Thirteen years later, end of '09 early '10, the pain suddenly got worse.  Since then the pain has gradually gotten worse to the point where I'm unable to work some days, and every day I'm in constant pain.  I've seen at least a half dozen doctors in the last year and a half, done physical therapy twice, had multiple tests, tried all sorts of muscle relaxers/anti-inflammatorys/etc, and saw a chiropractor for two and a half months.

So whats the damage?
A couple discs in my back are wearing away, two discs being pushed out and into my spinal cord, mild scoliosis and at least one pinched nerve.  Additionally I'm also developing carpal tunnel in both wrists.  July first of this year (2011) I suffered an episode of vertigo, accelerated heart rate and vomiting.  This led to a visit to the emergency room and a new round of tests for this new problem.  Sixteen days latter I'm still suffering from vertigo off and on and my back pain seems to be getting more persistent.  I've been off of work since the first and I'm due to return around the nineteenth but I'm not sure if I can drive to work with the vertigo.  With this problem and the back pain that is beginning to turn me into a cripple I'm not real confident how much longer I'll be able to hold a job.

Time for plan B?
What is plan B exactly?  The original plan was to take the safe route get a normal job then do the writing thing as a second job of sorts.  However that plan is now in danger of being derailed.  So I'm going to bring the writing pursuit up to the front burner just in case I find myself unable to work.


I hope to use this blog to keep me focused on the writing.  I'll brain storm here, post some rough writing and talk about the process and how its going.  My goal is to post at least three times a week, though if I'm not working then I should be posting more often.

So in short this blog will be used to keep me focused and responsible for pursuing my writing dream.